it's been a while since i've been on this... sorry to neglect it. i'll upload some of my pics from ART 221, i ended up getting an A in that class =] besides that, nothing new happy to be alive... and update with my goals... -my favorite word so far is noisome. look it up =] and i'm just much happier with myself. <3

i love art,
because every now and then you find something.
a song, a picture, a poem...
that tells how you feel better than you could ever express on your own.
and in that alone i find companionship.
the thought that someone out there knows exactly how i feel gives me comfort
and sustains my hope in the good of humanity.

Love,
Kimberly Anne

incredibly depressed as of late. life has gotten me down =[
i am in dire need of words of wisdom or cheer.
any help?

i haven't kept up with this...
just uploaded a few pics from my photography class.

it's been a bit crazy lately...

gramps' funeral is tomorrow. ];
R.I.P.
Ceferino Verano
9.9.22-4.27.06

here again i lie awake in my bed,
another sleepless night
lost in my thoughts of infatuation
routine conversations flow in my head
analyzing every last detail
of the last encounter i had with you
whether it be real or fictional
the trivial aspects plague my mind
trying to make sense of the jumble i'm presented with
in a last attempt i focus my energies
release the passion you strike in me
and force it onto paper
an outburst of words, images, and pictorals
aranged in random order
yet the resemblance it has of you is striking
i hold the book in my arms
and fall asleep knowing
my true feelings are safe from the world
that you will never see these
my late night confessions
of you and my guilty obsessions.

sometimes i feel so strongly about something... it scares me. my passions, can be a strength and can also lead to my downfall.

sometimes i wish i could tell people all about my past
that way they understand why i am the way i am
sometimes i wish i could confess the things i've done
so people could feel what i feel
sometimes i wish i could show people what i've seen
so people could see the world through my eyes
sometimes i wish i didn't have so many secrets
so people wouldn't keep secrets from me
sometimes i wish i wasn't so distant from love
so i could stop pushing those i love away
sometimes i wish i were someone else
so i could be the people i wish to please

i really do love my classes, but jeez...
im already swamped with so much work. i'm not complaining i'm actually really happy to have so much to do. im kind of weird like that, i love it when im ridiculously busy with work because it makes me feel useful. the past few quarters i've had so much time on my hands that i saw myself slacking and procrastinating, and eventually seeing my grades suffering. but last quarter i took on some courses that i knew would have  significant amount of work, especially work that i know i would dedicate myself too and i felt like i could handle more. so this quarter i signed up for courses with an intense amount of reading. but im getting behind =[ so im taking this week as a challenge to catch up.  i need to get back into the swing of things and manage my time better, like i did in highschool. i have three day weekends since i have no friday classes, but the past few weekends so many things have been happening that i havent had the time to really stay on top of my work. this weekend is going to be crazy too since it's jimmy and camille's birthdays. this last weekend was my sister's birthday and she came to visit me here in san luis obispo, which was so much fun. woooo im so exhausted, but its a good kind of exhausted.
im having such a good year so far. hope all of you are the same <3

the last couple of days have been crazy
started classes on monday and loving it. i'm taking an art class, philosophy, ethnic studies-global origins of america, and modern british literature.  i'm so excited for this year... i hope that it will be better than the last, and so far it looks good. a few bumps in the road have already popped up, but nothing serious.
one interesting thing though is that there was a fire last night in one of the buildings where i live, and again tonight.  this time it was on the top floor of the building, and i went out to watch what was going on. it was so intimidating to see the embers flying from the rooftop, and i couldn't help but think about what i would do if my place was on fire. i got so deep into thinking i almost felt like crying just imagining losing most of the sentimental things i have brought to college with me.  if i were in a fire, i don't know what i could grab first... probably the picture i have next to my bed of my mother and me, and my huge teddy bear she use to keep on her bed. after that, i'm not really sure of what i would do. i'd possibly try to get my computer and my phone too... but i realize everything is replaceable.  i'd be a bit bummed to not have my clothes and blankets but i won't be devastated. the most important things to me are the little triffles that hold the memories of my mom.
even though it was a random happening, i found it quite humbling. it helped to remind me that material things don't matter in the long run. it's the experiences that make us who we are. eventually things are replaced, broken, or thrown away... but the memories stay.
(hey i rhymed! haha lame i know...)

yay for `oh seven!

i'm so excited for this new year i hope that it will treat me better than last year did.
and although i know every year has its share of both good and bad times,
i know i can take it, i just hope that these new experiences take me somewhere new

just a random question...
do any of you have new year traditions?
my family is very superstitious so we have a few things we do every year
-first we clean out the whole house, to "sweep away the old year" and welcome the new year to the house
-we buy all kinds of fruit, each fruit represents some aspect of prosperity. i forgot what each one does, but i do remember we bought cantaloupe, grapefruit, oranges, grapes, pineapple, and more...
-when the clock strikes 12 we jump so that we start the new year on a higher level, to encourage growth in the new year
-the first thing we eat in the new year is 13 grapes, for good luck in with money in the new year. each grape represents each month, and then one extra for extra good luck.

i haven't spent a new year's with the family since my mom passed away in `02, so i don't remember if we had anymore traditions for the new year... but i still continue following them even though i celebrate it pretty much on my own now.

but with a new year comes new beginnings, and this year i'm going to try to better myself
one of my major resolutions is to be more positive and let go of the past
after reading the five people you meet in heaven (i watched the movie first, which is also really good and follows the book well) i've realized that being angry about my past is only hurting myself, so i need to forgive and move on.  one of my favorite parts of the book is about how we use anger, hate, and revenge as a weapon to those who have hurt us, but we dont realize it is a curved blade and we end up hurting ourselves.

i hope a year from now i will be able to look back and see myself as a better and happier person.
i wish you all the best. =]

2007.

wow, another year gone by. this year i'm turing 20. do you know how initimidating that sounds? jeez.
well looking back on pictures of mysels with a few friends, i realize i haven't changed all that  much since i starteed highschool. sad really. after 5+ years i'm still somewhat the same person. this year i vow to make changes, for the better.

i started with my mini "mid-life crisis", as my friend calls it, by taking scisscors and chopping off half of my hair. dying it red, placing highlights, and new glasses for a fresh face. went shopping for a new wardrobe that reflects more of my personality and a new outlook on life (along with a new phone, number, and etc to leave the stalkers in the dust).

part of my resolutions this year...
-let go of the past
-don't be obsessive
-work harder
-read more
-if not loose weight, get in shape
-excercise self control
-be more positive

more will come later, but so far i hope 2007 treats me much better than 2006 has...